5 Thoughts About Death

I Should be dead. According to many doctors, I’m over my expiration date by a couple of years. Here are a few thoughts about death that I haven’t read anywhere and keep thinking about.

Think about how you want to be found when you die.

Any of us can go at any second. I thought cancer was going to kill me like the doctors said. They said I had months to live (even though it didn’t feel that way). The cancer treatments were tough but doable. But then a known side effect led me to seek additional medical help. Hours later I was pretty much dead. It can happen fast, even when you think you’re going to have a slow death from cancer. Other ways can be even faster, like a car accident or even something small like a slip-and-fall. For instance, a friend of a friend who was fit and young, one Sunday morning went into the hospital with leg pain. It turned out she had an infection in her leg that had already turned into sepsis and she passed away only hours after being admitted. The point is – death isn’t something you usually plan.

Take a second and walk through your life as if you were somebody else and you’ve passed on. What do you find? How organized are you? What would you want your family to find? This includes a lot of things, like are your pictures organized AND accessible? Are passwords for computers, phones, banking, etc. somewhere that someone you trust can access? Is a will set up?

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My Driver’s License Renewal Anxiety

I recently had to renew my driver’s license. I was dreading the process. Last time, I failed the eye exam at the DMV (I swear the device was dirty!). They said I had to go get glasses, I went to do an eye exam and the person said, your eyes are fine for driving, printed me out my exam, I took it to them and they issued me my license.

Since then my eyes have gotten worse, so I was obviously worried, they got noticeably worse during all the drama from cancer and chemo. Now, I can’t remember if they’ve gotten better since the worst or how they stand vs pre-cancer. So I’ve been dreading going to renew the license. I kept reminding myself to do eye-exercises. Tried not looking at my phone too much. Looked up how much it would cost to get an eye exam. In the meantime, I’ve been so busy that the license expired! I just decided to go and see how it played out. I chatted with the licensing division rep. They had me fill out the online form. She said, Ok, read the line for me. I swallowed… I read off the line. She responded great, now just pay the fee and you’re good to go… SWEEEEET!!!

It’s good to know my vision is still pretty good. So much anxiety over essentially nothing!

I’m OLD!!!

I recently saw a post about Will Wheaton who played Wesley Crusher on Star Trek – TNG, he is now older than Patrick Stewart was when they first filmed TNG! Anyway, I looked it up to see how old Patrick Stewart was… 46. Um…. Huh???!!!… I recently turned 46!!!

Shut up Wesley!

Mesa Thunderbird Invitational at Dobson Ranch Golf Course in Mesa, AZ

Day 1

Tommy thought he didn’t play that well. He shot even par in very windy and cold conditions. Turned out that the score had him tied for second. Not Bad!

Day 2

He was playing well and ran into a bit of a road bump on the 17th hole. He hit the shot just long of the hole where the ball hit a sprinkler, took a huge bounce, hit the cart path and went out… bad break. The indicated drop zone was essentially a mud bath, then he had to get it up and down. He did have two eagles for the tournament, one each day. Plus, he bounced back like a pro on the next hole after 17 with a birdie!